Monday, September 29, 2014

Psalm 27:14

Wait for the Lord;
   be strong and take heart
   and wait for the Lord.


This brought me great comfort today. The Psalm also starts with "The Lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear?" I love that.

I struggle with caring too much what other people may think or say. I'm slowly learning what other people think or say about me is not my business and what they say doesn't matter. I'm learning to not take things to heart from those with opinions I place no value on. I know who I am and I'm proud of the person I am. God is working on me in big ways and made me so much stronger than I ever thought. I've never been so fearless in all my life. Through pain, I've found growth, strength, joy and unconditional love. Only God can do that. When your world is falling apart, He is the only one that can hold you together and show you the beauty all around. He has filled my life with my family and my friends and they are pouring His love on me and that's all I need.

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Baby #2 - 32 Weeks

Pregnancy Highlights
How Far Along: 32 weeks...it's getting close :) Sorry I'm late posting this again!
 
Size of baby: The size of a Squash!  (19 inches crown to heel and 4 lbs 2 oz ish).

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Total Gain of 16 pounds (weighing in at 134 lbs according to my scale).
Maternity Clothes: Whatever fits and is comfortable.
Movement: An active little thing. She doesn't ever want to kick for anyone!
 
Sleep: hahahahahaha.
What I miss:  Running/any exercise.

Cravings: Spicy. Dark Chocolate. Berries. Apples. Eggs and Avocado on toast. Pumpkin Bread. Mango. Salads. Avocado. Sweet Potatoes. Paninis.

...and Starbucks Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate, it's the best thing about Fall...besides pumpkins, fall leaves, cool nights, pumpkin bread, Thanksgiving and soup.
Deterrents: Still bar-b-que and the smell of tuna salad...ew.

Symptoms: Leg Cramps! Biology Breaks (ha!). Strong Braxton Hicks. Sleepyness.

Doctor Update: Next week!

Best Moment this week: Love and laughter with wonderful friends. I have had strong women to stand by my side for years that I'm happy to call my best friends, Brooke, Renee, Traci, Maggie and Cas! If you haven't had the joy of meeting them, I'm sorry, they are incredible! Lucky for me, I am ALSO blessed with the best neighbors in the world. This group of women has impacted my life in a big way lately. Brandie, Heather G, Noel + our newest addition, Heather M, I love you girls and our little street gang and lawn chair hangouts! (even if y'all didn't tell me the new chickfila was open for two months!)

Belly Picture: 


Thank you for your prayers and support!

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Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Beginning Psalms

I'm starting a quiet time every day to begin my day with peace. Today, I began with Proverbs 23 and then happened upon Psalms. Thought I'd share what stuck out to me...

Psalm 4[a]

For the director of music. With stringed instruments. A psalm of David.

Answer me when I call to you,
    my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
    have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
How long will you people turn my glory into shame?
    How long will you love delusions and seek false gods[b]?[c]
Know that the Lord has set apart his faithful servant for himself;
    the Lord hears when I call to him.
Tremble and[d] do not sin;
    when you are on your beds,
    search your hearts and be silent.
Offer the sacrifices of the righteous
    and trust in the Lord.
Many, Lord, are asking, “Who will bring us prosperity?”
    Let the light of your face shine on us.
Fill my heart with joy
    when their grain and new wine abound.
In peace I will lie down and sleep,
    for you alone, Lord,
    make me dwell in safety.

 Note: Psalm 4:1 is a beautiful prayer to start the day, asking God to hear our prayers and provide the answers. I think I'll borrow it for a while when I struggle with what to say. Likewise, 4:8 is the perfect ending to a day. It's a statement of closure to the day and faith in God.

Psalm 5

For the director of music. For pipes. A psalm of David.

Listen to my words, Lord,
    consider my lament.
Hear my cry for help,
    my King and my God,
    for to you I pray.
In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice;
    in the morning I lay my requests before you
    and wait expectantly.
For you are not a God who is pleased with wickedness;
    with you, evil people are not welcome.
The arrogant cannot stand
    in your presence.
You hate all who do wrong;
    you destroy those who tell lies.
The bloodthirsty and deceitful
    you, Lord, detest.
But I, by your great love,
    can come into your house;
in reverence I bow down
    toward your holy temple.
Lead me, Lord, in your righteousness
    because of my enemies—
    make your way straight before me.
Not a word from their mouth can be trusted;
    their heart is filled with malice.
Their throat is an open grave;
    with their tongues they tell lies.
10 Declare them guilty, O God!
    Let their intrigues be their downfall.
Banish them for their many sins,
    for they have rebelled against you.
11 But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
    let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
    that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
12 Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous;
    you surround them with your favor as with a shield.


Note: I found comfort in Psalm 5 today. My God fights for me, I need not depend on myself for that anymore. My back is no longer exposed to be vulnerable. God has only asked me to be still and accept His will. I have reached acceptance and will rest through this storm. I do not fear the waves anymore, nor the violent rocking of the boat. The storm will stop once it has run its course and my God will redeem me with a future more beautiful than I could have ever planned for. This is my peace today.


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Friday, September 19, 2014

Baby #2 - 31 Weeks

Pregnancy Highlights
How Far Along: 31 weeks...the countdown has begun.
 
Size of baby: The size of a pineapple (18 inches crown to heel and 3 lbs 12 oz - weight according to ultrasound).

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Total Gain of 15 pounds (weighing in at 133 lbs according to my scale).
Maternity Clothes: Whatever fits and is comfortable.
Movement: An active little thing. She's quite shy for other people though.
 
Sleep: I miss sleeping through the night but that won't happen for a while. Please, oh please, sleep like your sister.
What I miss:  Running. BUT by the time cooler weather comes around I'll be ready to go!

Cravings: Poblano Peppers. Berries. Peaches. Eggs and Avocado on toast. Pumpkin or Banana Bread. Mango. Salads. Avocado. Asparagus. Potatoes. Paninis.
Deterrents: Still bar-b-que and the smell of tuna salad...ew.

Symptoms: Leg Cramps Every Night AHH! Biology Breaks (ha!). Strong Braxton Hicks. Sleepyness.

Doctor Update: I went to the doctor's office today and saw the nurse practitioner. I also had an ultrasound and got to see Emma. God had already given me peace about her growth so, at no surprise, she is growing just fine. She is below the 50th percentile mark but I'm little too so they aren't worried. I will have another ultrasound at 36 weeks.

Best Moment this week: Maternity photos! It's funny, I always thought maternity photos were a bit silly but Erika did them in such a cozy, natural way without the gimmicks and props and cutesy junk...and just focused on the beauty of pregnancy - simple, natural. I'm so thankful to her! I found her because my sweet neighbor entered me in a contest on facebook for a maternity photo-shoot and I actually won! I never win those things! So big thanks Erika Francis Photography for the shoot and my neighbor Kim for entering me! The photos were lovely. She was such a doll to work with and she'll also be doing Emma's newborn shoot too! She has major talent, call her now.

Here's are her websites:
http://www.erikafrancesphotography.com/index2.php#!/HOME
http://erikafrances.blogspot.com/
https://www.facebook.com/erikafrancesphotography


Belly Picture: 




Thank you for your prayers and support!

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Saturday, September 13, 2014

Baby #2 - 30 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights
How Far Along: 30 weeks...time is speeding up. She could be here in as little as 5 weeks!

Size of baby: The size of a cucumber (17 inches crown to heel and over 3 pounds and now gaining half a pound a week!).
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Total Gain of 13 pounds (weighing in at 131 lbs). Plus one for the week!!

Maternity Clothes: If the weather cools down a bit, I can change up my wardrobe. I'm getting bored!

Movement: She's bossy. She likes me to sit a certain way and sleep a certain way.

Sleep: To put it positively, I'm training for a newborn! ha. Those bathroom breaks are getting me into the habit of waking up several times through the night.

What I miss:  Running. Being snuggled up in a sweater that doesn't make me look like a snowman.
Cravings: Poblano Peppers. Berries. Peaches. Eggs and Avocado on toast. Pumpkin or Banana Bread. Mango. Salads. Avocado. Asparagus. Potatoes. Paninis.

Deterrents: Still bar-b-que.
Symptoms: Leg Cramps all night. Biology Breaks (ha!). Strong Braxton Hicks. Tired Body and Mind. Urges to nap, sometimes I catch a snooze on my lunch break.

Doctor Update: Next week.
Best Moment this week: I've been fairly calm this week. I am making conscious decisions to think about when, where and how to do things before taking an action and relating it back to how it effects my peace. I'm blessed to be surrounded with positive people and situations and not feeling the "need" to get caught up or surrounded by negativity or stressful situations. Finding new ways to be still bring peace. I am enjoying reading, deep breathing and being in water. My dad always said a warm bath and sleep is the best cure. Who knows...maybe I'll make it full term! :)

Belly Picture: 



Thank you for your prayers and support!

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Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Baby #2 - 29.5 weeks.

Mid-week update:

I checked my scale at home over the weekend and weighed in at 130. I moved it and tried again Monday morning and got 130 again. I'm wondering if the scale I used at the doctor office may have been off. I'm going to stick to my weight change on my home scale.

That puts me at a gain of 1 pound for last week and 12 pounds total gain!


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Baby #2 - 29 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights
How Far Along: 29 weeks
Size of baby: The size of a butternut squash (17 inches crown to heel and nearly 3 pounds).
 
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Total Gain of 9 pounds (weighing in at 127 lbs). Loss of 2 pounds. This is according to the doctor's scale. I need to reweigh on my scale which is what I generally use to keep up with it.
Maternity Clothes: Mostly regular tops and maternity pants. Dresses are a mix. Tunics and leggings are my favorite.
Movement: Frequent.
Sleep: Hardly.
What I miss:  Running. Normal clothes.
 
Cravings: Poblano Peppers. Berries. Peaches. Eggs and Avocado on toast. Pumpkin or Banana Bread. Mango. Salads. Avocado. Asparagus. Potatoes. Paninis.
Deterrents: Varies.
 
Symptoms: Leg Cramps. Strong Braxton Hicks. Nausea. Exhausted.

Doctor Update: I saw the Doctor on 9/5. I received some good (no gestational diabetes!) and some bad news but none of the bad was definite so that is the silver lining there. Doctor visits are now every other week and at my next appointment we will have an unscheduled ultrasound, meaning this is not a routine ultrasound, followed by an appointment. Honestly, I'm a little anxious but not letting negative thoughts enter my mind. God gave me immediate peace about it and I have faith in that. For now, I'm focused on getting to see Emma again and how wonderful it will be to see her again.
 
Best Moment this week: Emma kicked Arden in the head while I was singing to her and the look on Arden's face was priceless. Little moments of hilarity...

Belly Picture: I didn't feel like it this week.


Thank you for your prayers and support!

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